Some About Me and My Disabilities
January 5, 2009 by Christie Garcia
Filed under Mom Talk, Venting
Hello everyone! I hope you all had a very Merry Christmas , and will have a very Blessed New Year in 2009!! I am not really sure about where I want to begin talking to you guys. So if I get side tracked and go off on a bunny trail or two please forgive me ok! Ha!
Well I am a 46 year old married christian mom of 7 children, four still at home, and I also have 4 beautiful grandaughters!! My children and grandchildren mean the world to me! I think that they are what has kept me going all these years, them and my faith in Jesus. I have had a long hard life , with many different struggles. As I am sure you all have had too!
Anyway, I didnt go to high school, I finished 9th grade. Back then 9th grade was called junior high. I would have gone to high school, but they wouldnt let me, well I should say they wanted me to go to an alternative high school, cause I was pregnant with my oldest daughter Tina; I was 15 almost 16. She is now 31 years old. Ha! Tina also has three of my grandaughters! I wanted to go to regular high school not an alternative one. But now looking back on it I wish I would have gone to the alternative high school. Because I didnt go to school period after that! So I dont have an education now. I have tried a couple times to get my GED but I never went through with it. I took some classes on it too. But I never followed through cause I have some learning disabilities and I felt stupid. And I was to scared to and embarrassed to ask for help. But boy how I wish I would have done differently now! I have two kids in grade school still and I cant even help them with their homework cause I have no clue what there doing! ha! It really makes me feel sad.
I also have been struggling the past few years with my health. I have so many illnesses its hard for me to believe it sometimes. The one that affects me the most is the brain disease. I have had three abnormal MRI`s. They found lesions in my brain. They also told me my brain was aged like an 80 year old woman. I didnt realize your brain aged with you, give or take a year or two. I also suffer from Migraine headaches and I went to the emergency room cause I couldnt get rid of one. They gave me an MRI and thats the first time they told me my brain was aged like an 80 year old woman, and that I had the lesions, and that I needed to be tested for Multiple Sclerosis.When I first heard that I was scared to death! I pictured and thought all kinds of scary things! I was very scared. I got on my computer and started researching MS and all its causes and what it felt like and etc.! There is so much info out there and if your not carefull you will get over whelmed and get to much info.Well then I kinda stopped dwelling on it so much. I had other illnesses I had to deal with too. Such as Diabetes, high blood pressure, fibromyailgia, hypothyroidism, arthritis, neuropathy in my feet and legs,and a few more I am sure I am forgetting. Ha! My Diabetes was out of control. I was not eating right and I was not exercising and I was hooked on cokes (coca-cola), and I have a very stressfull life. I am always stressed out! Stress can kill ya! Stress is not good for anyone, but its really not good for people with Diabetes and high blood pressure. My doctor was after me to get my blood sugars down, and my blood pressure down , and to get some of the stress out of my life. I was like yeah right! Does she have any clue about me or my life!
My hubby is a carpenter. He has been a carpenter for the past 45 years or so. Construction work around here is very slow right now. I guess it is every where right now. He usually gets laid off around the holidays and doesnt get back to work until after January. Which really puts us in a hole. This time he got laid off in October of 2006 , then he found a job in March of 2007. We almost lost our home and our van and everything that time. But Praise God we didnt!! Then in May 2007, only two months later, my hubby stepped off a curb while leaveing work and tore his meniscus( probably spelled it wrong) in his knee. He could barely walk after that. So he went to the doctor and was told he would have to have surgery. Ugh! So there we were again with no income! He was off work from May 2008 until August or September of 2008. Once again there we were with no income! We had food stamps though. We just didnt have money to pay our house payment or our utilities and etc.. I was so stressed out it wasnt even funny. So was my hubby though. He is not the kind of guy who just sits around . As soon as he could he was out there looking for work.Whenever he is out of work hes out there everyday looking for a job. And when he has a job he never misses a day, he goes to work everyday even when hes sick. So it was very hard for him to be at home too, and not be able to work or do anything about it. Which in turn made us both edgy and we argued allot about what were we going to do. Anyway, then in October 2008 the boss gave my hubby a choice to take an $8.00 an hour pay cut or get laid off AGAIN! Of course he took the pay cut, haveing some income is better then none. Well then in December 2008 they fired my hubby. Because he went an did a side job for another guy for one day. Even though there was no work for my hubby with his regular boss. I dont think the boss man can do that legally, but he did. So as of now we are without a job once again. My hubby has no other trade, but is willing to learn. Hes a hard worker too! I know God will open the doors and provide for us like He always has! I am learning to rely on Him more and more, and not to rely on man. I cant tell you I dont get scared or worry cause I do! And sometimes God takes us to that fine wire where I feel like I am going to fall off, and I just want to scream God where are you!?! But He always comes through, He always does!
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About the author Christie Garcia is Mom to 7 children, ages 8 to 31. She also has 4 granddaughters, ages 1 to 7. Christie lives with several diseases, still in the process of being fully diagnosed. It is Christie's desire to interact with other mom's who are going through stuff too, to encourage, strengthen and build each other up. Read more from this authorRelated posts:
